i hate feeling like i was used for a one night thing. What we had i thought was meaningful and i actually thought you cared but the lease you could have done was contact me but maybe I had you all wrong and you're not as perfect as I thought you were....

"How many times do I fly through your head space? Now it's speeding away from the safe place, Yeah, Your skin, the touch, The kiss, the rush, too much, And here it comes
When your lips touch mine, It's the kiss of life, I know, I know that it's a little bit frightening, We might as well be playing with lightning,"

I dont particularly want to see you tomorrow... you havent done anything but i just dont feel like it..... i'm really tired and would quite like a day to myself where im not being nagged to do anything and i can just rest... but how can i tell you that without you getting grumpy.... i cant....

GRRR

i tried to stop liking you but then you got brought up and i couldnt help but like you again..... well realise i still like you....ive been offered ...by your mum ironically to come stay skate down there when i want and i can even get one on one coaching and i can come down for some races aswell...i would get to see you.... that would be cool... give me a chance to see if anythings there or if its just what people are seeing that makes me feel like i do....I don't know...... you logged off during our convo today.... and then came on later and still didnt reply... is it cause you are upset with how you've gone and dont really want to talk about it or are you ignoring me cause you don't want to talk to me... IDK..... I just wanna give you my number or get your number so i can text you... would be way easier.....

The distance between us

I can't get you out of my head. But I don't know why....Is it the factors of everyone else that makes me like you or is it just you? You are so good to talk to and you're so sweet but there's too much distance between us. What if there wasn't i ask myself... Well then maybe we could have something but I don't even know if you are just being nice or if there is something there. I haven't known you for long but you are ticking alot of boxes on my checklist. There's just something about you, a certain charm that brings me close to you.... but then i know its unhealthy to feel like this when we could never work with the distance between us but I can think it would be nice if it could work, if there wasn't the distance. But there is and i just have to suck it up and create a friendship with you and not something more....