YOU

You told me today i was soo cute and you would keep me around a little longer and then you told me im a wonderful friend.... why do you have to be taken and moving away aswell???!!!!  You are so sweet and we get along so well.  WHYYY??!!!!! Does God intentionally place guys like you in my life to test me????!!! You are ideal!! You woo me without trying! i told you today i liked making people smile and you said that i always make you smile....... why do you have to be like that??!! I don't like you.. I'm over that but there's gotta be someone else out there like you..... One day...........

Friends

You said to me this morning "You've just mentioned 5 guys in 5 minutes! That's a guy a minute!" You don't know how much that hurt. You tell me im not a sugar plum fairy but you keep making me out to be. I just wanted to tell you about the conversations i had with people last night. I'm sorry they were all guys and you seem  to be lacking guy friend atm but i was that girl once! My best friend had all the guys falling off her and i barely had a good guy mate. I know what you're going through but that doesnt mean i cant talk about my guy friends to you. You keep judging me when i talk about guys, you say you don't but you do whether you realise it or not. I appreciate the way you have been there for me and helped me through things but sometimes i don't need to be judged. i do that enough myself.

Patterns

Just because i start talking to a different guy that i don't usually don't talk to doesn't mean i am going to start having a thing for him. He is a really awesome guy who i can spend hours talking to as i have recently discovered. You actually offended me when you said that I have a pattern and then keep bringing it up. he's obviously gonna be able to help me with my study for calculus and we proved today that we will be able to help each other. if he can help me to get better grades then of course i wanna spend more time with him. i enjoy his company and he's really intelligent. we spent an hour just sitting there today distracting each other from our studies but helping each other at the same time. I am not going to go looking for a relationship with him when 1. i've only just started getting to know him and I'm not falling into that trap again and 2. he's planning on moving away in february anyway so there would be no point. he is just a friend, a study buddy and i would appreciate it if you didn't judge me because of that. Yeah sure it seems like i've gone straight from guy A to guy B but like you said to me, Guy B has been there in the shadows for a long time and i just kept denying it. Just let me and him enjoy each others company as friends please.